Category: Blog

  • The New Normal

    My husband and I watched a documentary last night about the Chowchilla Kidnapping of 1976. I had never heard of Chowchilla, California, nor had I heard about the 26 children, aged 5-14, and their school bus driver, who were hijacked at gunpoint one summer from the local swimming pool. Now, I wasn’t born until 1977,…

  • Hope for Your Scars

    My husband and I are HUGE movie fans. When we started dating, over twenty-five years ago, movies were one of our favorite outings together. We would watch a movie and stay up late, discussing all aspects of the story. During the first few years of our marriage, we went to the Sunday matinee almost every…

  • ,

    Dust and Ashes

    I read a devotion today that included a quote from Polish rabbi, Simcha Bunin. Rabbi Bunin said, “Everyone should keep a note in each of their pockets. When feeling slightly full of yourself, you’d pull out the note from your left pocket, which would say, ‘I am nothing but dust and ashes.’ But when feeling…

  • Spinning Plates

    “This must be the end. This is how I go.” These are the thoughts that went through my mind as my chest clenched and the pain shot across my shoulders. “Just breathe. Take slow breaths in and out. It’s just anxiety. I’m fine. Everything is fine.” Except it’s not. Anxiety is a badge of honor…

  • Where Was God?

    Where Was God?

    Tamara Lexow here again. Some of you may know that I am a suicide survivor. When I was nineteen years old, my mom took her own life; leaving me, an only child, to deal with the grief. My dad had recently left us, and I felt very alone. For a long time, I didn’t want…

  • The Thorns of Suffering

    The Thorns of Suffering

    I’m new around here. My name is Tamara Lexow and I’d like to share some words with you. I snuggled up on my couch a few nights ago with my laptop in lap. My kids were doing homework, my husband was reading, and I needed to edit a piece I’ve been working on that I…

  • Just Show Up – A Mother’s Journey (Guest Post)

    Hello all of you beautiful souls.  Yes, I know, I’ve been silent. I will not give excuses. With this season of COVID I think we all have our reasons why we are failing in some areas and hopefully excelling (or beginning to) in other areas. I had a slight job addition. I still am strong…

  • Just Show Up – The CV Fear (What Good Can There Be?)

    If you are in the United States I imagine many of you can recognize this lady: “Ain’t no one got time for that!” Right?  Isn’t that how we feel about this CV? Our lives were on a trajectory and now, well, now we have no idea what is to come by the end of the…

  • Just Show Up – Imprisoned

    Just Show Up – Imprisoned

    I’m back! (Insert whatever evil, wicked, face you can see, hands together, fingers steepled, belching out a horrendous laugh…) 😉 Wicked, evil, horrible. These are words I’ve heard were said in association with my name in the past year. Why? Because I chose to make decisions in my life, and set boundaries that the few…

  • Just Show Up – Rising Up (Domestic Violence Awareness)

    I’m in the process of MOVING to the Dallas/Ft. Worth area! After cancer, Harvey, and the loss of my father, moving locations is a breeze. 😉  However, I don’t want to lose sight of what is so important this month and that is bringing awareness to understanding what ‘domestic violence’ is and the effects it…