Tomorrow is a huge day for Hopeful Hearts Ministry. A few weeks I alluded to a project that might get off the ground and as of tomorrow it will be under way! I still don’t want to say too much yet…I want to wait for it to be completed so that it can speak for itself. What I will share is that this was a ‘vision’ or ‘idea’ that came to me over a year ago when Hopeful Hearts began. Just as the Hopeful Hearts charm came to me with full meaning and clarity so did this project. I believe it will be a tool that can help with spreading awareness on the effects of all abuse and at the same time offer hope to those who have already suffered in their life.
It will be a long day beginning at 5:30am driving to Dallas and driving home that night so I’m not sure I will be able to post a blog till the following morning. Keep myself and a few other survivors who are involved in the project in your prayers please!
The past three days of irritability, frustration, anger, resentment, jealousy, hurt, insecurity, and sadness were like the enemy through a nuclear bomb at my spirit and even though I could logically recognize the attack I was dazed and confused, overcome by the effects of the sinful poison. Once I had the conversation with my son I felt something shift inside and I knew that the only way out of this hazardous zone was to force my way out.
In recognizing what the enemy was doing (stealthy sabotaging my mood and behavior which would not have been conducive to implement this very important project) I had to override the fired up emotions and negative thoughts thinking about the positive that was in my life, the good that has been accomplished and the lives that can still be affected. There was genuine hurt and pain that I’ve suffered in the past few weeks that is reasonable that I have a right to but I finally began to embrace the truth of forgiveness.
I had to forgive or every bit of turmoil that was choking my spirit would keep me in chains holding me back from the abundance of blessings God has in store. I’ve lived that way once and I certainly do not want to go back to that life again.
With God’s strength and grace I faced one person in particular recently who’d hurt me in a most tender place within my spirit. Setting pride aside I acknowledged my own childish behavior and explained I knew our relationship was more than this particular incident and I was making a choice to move on. It didn’t mean that my spirit isn’t still wounded and sore but that with God’s help we could move past this and with time it would heal.
One choice made and open communication is all it took to clear my spirit of the enemy’s poisonous residue. Now with a clear conscience and spirit I can move forward to what God has planned.
Is your spirit at unrest? Do you recognize the enemy? Make a choice to override the weak lies and overcome with God’s grace.
Blessings
Shannon
