I’m going out of the box here and publishing my thoughts I kept track of for the last three days of this scan/ radiation/ isolation / treatment plan. It’s been more eventful than I ever anticipated so I figured I’d simply share with those that were curious.
**Warning** This is a journal of my thoughts and what happened through the day. It is not meant to be poetic, or award winning literary prose. It is simply me. đ
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Journey through Final Thyroid Cancer treatment
Day 1
I arrived today at MDA 7:30am âŚ. My nerves were causing my bowels to erupt. I couldnât eat. It isnât FEAR that has me. I know I can do this. It is the ANXIETY of not knowing what I am looking to have to do. Just the not knowing. I think that is mostly the case with cancer patients. Weâve resolved to the fact we have cancerâŚthen we get to the fight. Okay, so letâs fight. But itâs a lot of WAITING. And then MORE WAITING.
Thatâs the frustrating part. Is it working? What is the next step? How LONG will this actually be?
And, for me, who, as of this weekend, was told by a person who has NEVER HAD thyroid cancer â âItâs the âbestâ cancer to haveâ⌠– I sat I the waiting room for my blood tests for an HOUR and thought, âThis is Cancer.â
THIS â the waiting to get the blood tests. The blood tests. The needles. The scans. The waiting for results. The having to be at a place you donât want to be but itâs a part of the fight. Packing the patience.
So I waited till I was called at 8:54am for my blood work to be drawn (my appointment was at 8am and remember I was ½ hr early).
At 9:07am I arrived at the Nuclear Medicine floor (4 floors up) and signed in. I was greeted by the same gold toothed (itâs a partial âgrillâ with a star in the middle) receptionist. âWhatâs the last name?â âCan I verify the armband? What is your MRN?â and just before she sends me off she whispers deeply âDid you know you have an outstanding balance of $4567.89?â
I laugh, because the way she says it is with such incredulous disbelief. Though, Iâm pretty certain there are many others who have much larger outstanding balances. âYes, Iâm aware, Iâve set a payment plan. Until I my money tree grows in the back yard Iâm giving you guys $100 a month.â
Her gold-toothed grin got wider. I made her day, which made mine.
I should have told her âAnd I have ANOTHER $4500 hospital bill that LED me to this one so maybe yaâll can duke it out??â
I sat in the waiting area for about 20 minutes and was called back into a small room and sat in a rather large and deep plush plastic chair. My feet dangled with a whimsical wonder of what was to happen next.
I filled out my consent to treat. Signing off that even though this is the âbest cancer to haveâ that even our treatment can have complications and cause death. Who knew (I say with great sarcasm⌠itâs not having a thyroid or thyroid replacement meds in the last 3 weeks so forgive the SARCASM)âŚ.
Then I had to wait.
WAIT againâŚbecause we actually needed that blood work in order to know if I needed a Thyrogen shot before we progressed. My TSH levels (high thyroid levels that show something is amiss with your thyroid) needed to be high in order for the scan to take properly.
I waited for 2 HOURS. Because it is Monday. Itâs a busy day for fighting cancer.
Itâs okay because I packed my patience (good girl) âŚbut I failed to pack a jacket or snacks. The nurse brought me two warm blankets and I curled my legs up underneath me and read my book.
Finally, the results were in – NO SHOT NEEDED! Yeah me! Itâs the only ONLY time Iâll celebrate having a high TSH level. EVER.
So the Radiologist came in and explained what was to happen. I would receive a âtracer doseâ of radiation so it could go through my body for 24 hoursâŚ.so tomorrow I could get the body scan and anything that could possibly be âthyroidâ would âlight upâ. And depending on what that was and how much etc my Endocrinologist will determine if I need the Radiation therapy and if so, what dose. The amount is what determines my complete isolation stay.
At this time, the nurse comes in carrying a very thick medicine bottle in gloved hands. She hands me gloves and two glasses of water. I put on the gloves and Iâm given 7 pills of radiation in the palm of my hand. It was most likely my imagination but I swear I could feel their warmth. Two by two I took them.
And then I was free to go.
I came to my place of refuge, which is only a few miles from MDA and set up house.
Day 2
Headed over to MDA at 8:30am and was immediately brought into Nuclear Medicine where they set me up for the full body scan. I laid in the machine and closed my eyes.
âI need you Lord, oh how I need you. My one defense, my righteousness, oh God how I need you.â This hymn (in the voice of the LIFETEEN choir) played over and over in my mind.
For 40 minutes.
Then they had me drink some water because something was showing up on my esophagus. They wanted me to make sure I drank water to wash anything down (ie Radiation) that maybe hadnât been flushed down.
Another 20 minutes under.
âI need you Lord, oh how I need you. My one defense, my righteousness, oh God how I need you.â (I couldnât remember any other lines)
Then it was done, as quickly as I was ushered in I was ushered out.
I looked at my MDA account to figure when and where I was to meet with my Endocrinologist to find out my results. My appointment was in 10 minutes on the other side of campus.
I hopped on the little tram system they have and was off.
Again, sat down only to be called back and before I knew it I had Dr. Habra in front of me.
âWhere is your husband?â
âSix feet under in our backyard. Being off the Synthroid really got to me.â đ
He had a resident in there that I wasnât quite sure about meâŚ.âIâm kidding, I said.â
Dr. Habra laughed. âWell, good news then. Iâm putting you back on the Synthroid tomorrow.â
This was good news!!!! That meant that I could be on my way to being âmeâ again sooner than I thought.
AND I get to get off the LOW IODINE DIET tomorrow!!!
ButâŚ..
They found a spot show up on my scan on my throat/esophagus area. So, because of that I am receiving the low dose of 30m(?) radiation. Which means at 2pm today when I receive this radiation I will go into isolation.
However, from what Dr. Habra says I will be able to go to stipulations and be around people by Thursday.
Not so bad.
2pm I headed back to MDA to receive my RADIOACTIVE ISOTOPE PILL. When I checked in with my friend (Iâll call her âSTARâ b/c of her awesome dental jewelry) she looked at her screen and said, âOh GIRL, I havenât seen someone get this in a few weeks. You ARE special. MmmHmm⌠yep, they gonna light you up!â (No, Iâm NOT exaggerating. J)
When I went back I was checked by two Nuclear Medicine nurses that, in fact, it was me, just to make sure they werenât giving this to the wrong patient, and then they disappeared to put on some very thick gloves before wheeling in a box with the radioactive sign on it. Inside the box, under a thick type of covering, was a medal cylinder. And inside that cylinder was a gray pill that looked like a Tylenol. They gave me gloves to wear and three glasses of water. They took the pill out with tongs and placed the pill in the palm of my gloved hand. I took the pill.
Over. Like that.
They left the room and I was told to drink all the water and tap on the door when I needed refills. That I needed to go to the bathroom at least 2x before I left. Plus I had to stay in that room for at least 2 hours to make sure nothing major happened.
After about 30 min I became a bit nauseous and then light headed but nothing too major. By 4pm I was âreleasedâ to go directly to my car and to my place of isolation, and to avoid people if possible. Being that late barely anyone was still in the waiting rooms so it wasnât that hard. Which makes me think they did the timing on purpose.
When I go to home I was exhausted emotionally but I had to keep drinking water which made me go to the bathroom every 30 min. And every time I flush (for the next week and a ½ ) I have too flush 3x to keep it from contaminating the area, because my urine and sweat is the number one place the radiation will come out.
Day 3
Sleep evaded me. I got up 4x to use the rest room and my mouth was DRY. Finally I needed to actually âget upâ. I put on my âI AM RADIOACTIVEâ t-shirt and walked the short walk from my place of âisolationâ to MDA and my 10am post scan. Even though Iâm in isolation I was given the directive to simply keep a 3ft personal space bubble around myself when I encountered others. So I didnât go on crowded elevators etc.
I said hello to âSTARâ, my friend, and showed her my shirt, which gave her a great kick. I was ushered into the scan pretty quickly (which wasnât shocking hence my âlevelâ of radio activeness) and the technician laughed about my shirt as well.
âI have a friend who works at the Nuclear plant where they make the medication we gave you yesterday. He bought a shirt that says âIâm a Nuclear Physicist, if you see me running, FOLLOW ME!ââ
I needed that laugh. đ
The scan was the same as yesterday. Except today the nifty tune âIâm radioactive, radioactive.â Played over and over in my mind. Nah, Iâm not OCD muchâŚ
The Dr. who checked the images found something on my chest area and ordered me to receive a 3D Chest scan.
I wasnât too surprised. I just had a follow-up chest CT a week ago and was told they found some spots on my lungs that we were going to monitor every 6 months.
I was âescortedâ the mile underground walk (literally I got to go through corridors only employees go into) to the main building and immediately put onto another machine.
OH, lol, before I was put on the machine I had to take off my bra, but they couldnât find a gown (b/c only patients from the actual hospital tend to come to that machine, those who are already IN gowns) so I did the âwhip off my bra without taking your shirt offâ routine that every girl knows. LOL the tech looked at me and shook his head, âOkay youngâun.â
This one was like the Taj Mahal of machines. I even had a TV to look up at which was on HGTV âŚthough once the scan started I really couldnât âwatchââŚI had to only listen.
Two 1.5 hour scans today. FUN
Once the scan was done I was told to talk to my DR about an appointment that the scan wouldnât be read until this afternoon.
So I went to my Endoâs area (once finding my way out of the wherever I wasâŚby the way, no escort this time so that was interesting) âŚ. And had to literally play âdodge-the-peopleâ to avoid being around a lot of people at one time.
But I had my shirt on so I WAS giving a warning to others!!!
After some waiting, and talking to a few nurses, etc, my Endo met with me and said so far they arenât seeing anything âconcerningââŚ.but if something shows up on the 3D scan then I guess they will call me for an appointment.
With that I was told to go eat âseafoodâ (because it was #1 NO on my dietâŚbut Iâd rather have cheese J) and to keep playing dodgepeople on my way home.
I was in the hospital from 9:45am â 1:30pm. This isolation HAS NOT been very ârelaxingâ.
Iâm emotionally exhausted.
Besides the havoc this radiation is doing to my bowels. Ugh.
So, here I am, finally, âat restâ and I will head home tomorrow.
In time to see my sonâs last choir performance. In time to go shopping for something to wear to his graduation. In time for motherâs day.
But there is one thing âoffâ⌠There is no âYOU ARE FREE OF CANCERâ or â YOU KICKED CANCERâS ASS â RING THE BELLâ
Nothing.
I picked up a piece (the ONLY piece they had, I think GOD had it sitting there just for me because HE knows itâs my FAVORITE) of yellow cake w/ chocolate frosting in the cafeteria and ate it just now.
Yeah me. đ
My next âofficialâ appointment with this âthyroid cancerâ is a follow-up ultrasound and visit with my surgeon in September.
And my Endo said I donât see him for a year!
And unless this 3D scan says something then I donât see anyone about that till October for a follow-up CT.
But I do come back to MDA Monday (yes, YES, Monday) for my routine follow-up with dermatology for my Squamish cell carcinoma that I had two years ago.
OtherwiseâŚ. Do I dare say I did it?? Iâm cancer free?? So anti-climatic.
Regardless, I had the cake, so âyeah meâ! đ