It snuck up on me again…that weird feeling. This time it wasn’t so much dizziness but a heaviness on my chest and a shortness of breath. I made it through Mass this morning and then sought out the school nurse to check my blood pressure. But all was well. The supposed culprit? STRESS
Hmmm…what do I have to be stressed about? 😉
Isn’t stress the answer to EVERYTHING that no one can explain? I mean stress can even KILL you right? Ha! It’s stress that causes Neal’s MS attacks to come about. That darn stress. Let’s just all move to a deserted island and live like the islanders. Knowing me, stress would find me there too.
What I don’t understand is that I used to correlate stress with worry. But I’m not really worried about anything? Well, let’s scratch that. Finances still have me in a bind but by the literal grace of God we’ve pulled through. It hasn’t even been in the forefront of my mind for quite some time. But that is the tricky part about stress…it attacks what lies underneath the subconscious. It sees through to the eyes of your soul and sucks on to the areas of doubt like a leech until suddenly you are literally light headed and have to search inside for where the doubt surfaced to pull the leech of stress off and allow faith in God to mend it into confidence.
I think that is where I am this evening. I’m searching within to find those areas of doubt that surfaced without me even realizing it…and pull the leech of stress away. What is most beautiful about this analogy is that God is most clever even with the doubt sucking stress leech… often leeches are used medically to clear up congested blood that could form into a clot. When the leech sucks the bad blood away it makes room to recreate the new oxygenated blood. See, so stress leeches are possibly letting us realize where the stress lies and once we address it, it is removed and our spirit renewed.
🙂
I know, it’s a crazy analogy…but hey…I have little oxygen going to my brain!
Blessings
Shannon