This morning in adoration I dedicated EXPOSED to God’s care. Msgr. Elmer, my spiritual adviser, suggested I take the book and literally place it on the altar. I was a bit nervous to do so, for fear whomever was in the chapel with me would think I was trying to ‘show off’ the book. I don’t know why that is such a big issue with me, but I don’t want people to think I’m trying to ‘push’ it. At any rate, there was only one other woman in there and she was lost in saying her rosary so it was a very private moment between myself and God.
After I sat down and wrote out all that has been plaguing my mind in the journal. What I love so much about God is that He throws in little ways to let you know He is listening. If you claim you don’t get these little messages (whether it be a literal word, or a sudden breeze from a still hot summer day, or a covering of warmth inside when the world feels so cold and brittle all around you) then harden not your heart to the thousands of ways a DAY that He tries to get your attention! 🙂 In this journal there are Bible verses on each page. Since I began writing in it back in January it has become a little game to purposefully avoid reading what the verse is until AFTER I wrote down what was on my heart. It never fails, each verse correlates DIRECTLY to where my struggle or joy is on that page.
For instance, this morning on this particular page I was writing about my struggle with marketing the book. I wrote, “I don’t want to be all consumed with the book, but it’s a double-edged sword. I do want the word out – it’s why I wrote it to be gin with! But I don’t want to be obsessed with numbers. Help Me. Help me to be effective in a marketing strategy. Help me to hear your guidance and be aware of what you need of me when others do come to me and want to share. Help me to not get ‘above myself’. My biggest fear is that in all of this I will lose sight of what the intent and purpose was to begin with.”
Do you know what the Bible verse was on this page? :
Galatians 6:9 “Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.”
My journal entry was 12 pages and EVERY PAGE went like above…with a specific word from God to set my heart at ease for that particular woe or to rejoice with me in a praise.
AWESOME!!! 🙂
Blessings
Shannon