“Good news makes you feel better. Your happiness will show in your eyes.” Proverbs 15:30
Troubled, sad, struggling with my personal imperfections, I sat in adoration this morning pouring my soul out to God in my journal. I know, funny that I sit before His feet and can literally hold a conversation with Him, out loud if I wanted, but I feel more comfortable putting pen to paper. On each page is a verse from the Bible that always seems to be very comforting (and odd enough, goes along with the subject on the page). I remembered looking at this verse and thinking about years ago (nearly 9 1/2) to be exact, that I came to trust in my intimate relationship with God that I no longer had to carry the burden of life on my shoulders and one of the main reactions from people that were the closest to me was that they could see the happiness in my eyes. The love I claimed from God literally changed my physical appearance.
Recalling those months and years following my ‘reversion’ remembering how happy I was but how hard those days and months were and yet I clung to the knowledge and wisdom of pure Godly joy, the memory spoke to my heart and gave it a flash resuscitation. I gave myself a wake up call and pulled on my own ‘big girl panties’ to stand fast to this ridiculous inner struggle that has plagued me off and on for the past few weeks. Sometimes I forget this battle that I live in!
Later in the day I began to prepare for a talk that I’ll be giving to Young Professionals with a program by the Galveston-Houston Archdiocese called Cafe Catholica in a few weeks. I had just spoken with someone that is in my Young Professional group and was getting a hold on what it is they truly want to hopefully learn more about and I was struggling with how I could truly put it all together when I received a phone call from a friend that I hadn’t heard from in a very long while. She is a beautiful woman living the single life and going after what God has called her to in her profession and being His love to those that need her in this moment. Our entire conversation gave me a ton of ideas and thoughts to work on in regards to the keynote! It was like a direct gift from God!
The greatest gift I received today, however, is listening to my youngest son giggle. A deep, gurgling boisterous chuckle that can only come from sincere happiness. He has been like this all day ever since I took him to get his gerbil (Squirt). He told me, “Mom this is the best day ever!” I just love to hear the laugh. 🙂
It reminds me of another promise God gives:
“He will yet fill your mouth with laughter and your lips with shouting.” Job 8:21
Blessings
Shannon