I probably should wait to write this blog but since my nephews are taking naps and my sister is wrapped up in watching ‘RUDY’ for probably the 12th time I decided to go ahead and get my blog in for the day. However, I’m in a fowl mood so it might not be the best entry. I’ve been trying to say Hail Mary’s to keep my mind from being fowl…it helps but then I just start thinking about everything and I get frustrated all over again.
Ugh
The thing is…why is it a man and woman don’t communicate the same way? Neal and I have been doing great for a long while but we’ve recently (as of yesterday) had something come up where he made a financial decision without communicating with me and now this decision has caused other set backs in areas that could have been prevented had he communicated with me to begin with. I’ve been praying and asking God how to proceed in trying to have this discussion but even when I went about it in a more ‘gentle’ way and varying approach from my normal attitude I was still met with opposition and what felt like lack of consideration. That’s the main kicker, it’s not about the decision he made…it’s about the lack of consideration in bringing me into it…like he ran the ball the whole game without passing it to his team members. Ball hog! 😉 I feel obsolete.
Granted, I don’t believe he truly meant to cause me to feel this way. But the point is I do and he doesn’t seem to care why.
*sigh* I’m not blogging, I’m venting. Where is God in this?? I’m asking myself diligently to pay attention to where God is showing up…open my ears Lord, help me to hear! Open my eyes, help me to see! Open my heart, help me to love like you….
Jesus, Mary & Joseph pray for me!
Blessings
Shannon