I’ve been irritable all day. I was fine when I got up, went to work out and just before I got the kids out of bed. However, when I woke Seth up he was a bit crabby from having a cold (meaning, he was extremely dramatic because his nose ‘just won’t stop running!‘ – as he yells this and shoves a Kleenex up his nostril, stamping his feet in the process) and when I got Ryan up he started in on Seth because Seth was being so crabby, which led to me getting on to them to just LEAVE EACH OTHER ALONE! Augh!
That was how I began the day, I should say ‘we’, began the day. I did have a bit of surprise when I went to Mass and got to hear Ryan sing a song during the presentation of the Gifts. The choir sang with him but he was at the podium by himself. I was very proud to watch him do this and listen to his new budding ‘male’ voice sing. 😉
But the irritability remained. I supposed it didn’t help that I had to ‘fast’ for the blood work and physical I had this morning. And I suppose it doesn’t help that the only form of caffeine that I ever allow myself (chocolate) I’ve taken away in an effort to cut carbs and sweets from my diet. Hey, my BMI is at least on ‘normal weight’ on the doctor’s chart…even though I weigh 10lbs heavier than I have EVER IN MY LIFE. Augh!
Hence the reinforcement to cut the carbs and sweets!!! But the kicker came when I had to come to terms with myself and some things I’ve been noticing about my body that suggest I could be ‘relapsing’ from my nice long remission with Rheumatoid Arthritis. I’ve been in remission for nearly 10 years! But I am now having pains in my hip flexers, my knees and my wrists. The fact it is in ‘pairs’ of joints is the biggest sign. BUT it could just be that I am getting old(er).
It certainly is not what it was when it was at its worse so I can handle a non-steroid, over the counter treatment at this time. But the doctor did encourage me to call my Rheumatologist back up and make an appointment. Good news, I found out my Rheumatologist is now one of the best in the nation…bad news…might be awhile before I get in to see her…like 9 months. I’m waiting on a call back, so pray I will get in sooner.
So, what have I learned today? Maybe that I should have dropped the kids off to school and gone back to bed? Asked for a ‘do over’? 😉
Actually, I was reminded that my suffering is nothing but a drop in an overflowing water pail when I compare it to the suffering Christ did for me on the cross. Getting old(er)? HA! I’m getting wiser! And my wisdom comes from that by which He leads me to recognize His gifts in even these little moments of unrest. As my friend, Terri, who is dealing daily with a son who is still in a coma (from a tragic skateboarding accident on June 5th), suffers scores deeper and stronger than I will (God willing) ever imagine, I know I am blessed and even downright spoiled.
So praise be to God for it all!
Blessings
Shannon