I think today I had a taste of what the power of the mind can do. My chest is tight and I’m coughing that dry, throaty cough that sucks the energy right from your very core. All day long I tried to keep myself busy by doing laundry, watching a movie, ironing and I even got a few pages written in the new book…I did everything possible to keep my mind going to this doctor visit tomorrow.
At one point I finally had a heart to heart talk with God when the boys weren’t around. I told Him how I felt about the whole situation but I also told him that in whatever capacity He needed me that I do trust in His plan to carry it forward. Oh geeze, I mean I just have to laugh at myself and how dramatic I am! I think about this picture my parents have of me when I was about 18 months old, in a diaper I was bent over at the waist with my head in my hands touching the ground and my butt up in the air throwing a tantrum. Interesting how some things never change. 😉
What I hope for tomorrow is that I can write a blog that says the tests were ALL WRONG and there was no point in being rushed into a doctor’s visit. But, that won’t be the case so soon…I’d imagine they’ll want to do more blood work and how knows, maybe even other types of testing and that will take another few days or weeks. Who’s idea was it that I go get my ‘base line’ done?? Did I not do a blog on getting ‘old'(er)??? I thought it was rediculous then, now look at where it got me!!
In all seriousness, I am not trying to sway anyone else from getting your routine physicals or base lines for cholesterol, etc. You should keep healthy and be preventative. I’m just feeling sorry for myself. Don’t mind me.
I guess because I know my inner strength and I know that essentially I can and will handle anything thrown my way by the grace and power of Christ, that it gives me free license to be a bit flippant at times. You know, pouting before I get busy? 🙂
It’s all good. I do know that what I think, how I think and how I choose to react plays a major role in my overall health so I won’t give myself this freedom to be so whiny very long.
God gifted me today by giving me a reading that I felt could have been written by my own hands.
1st Timothy 1:12-17
Beloved:
I am grateful to him who has strengthened me, Christ Jesus our Lord,
because he considered me trustworthy
in appointing me to the ministry.
I was once a blasphemer and a persecutor and arrogant,
but I have been mercifully treated
because I acted out of ignorance in my unbelief.
Indeed, the grace of our Lord has been abundant,
along with the faith and love that are in Christ Jesus.
This saying is trustworthy and deserves full acceptance:
Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners.
Of these I am the foremost.
But for that reason I was mercifully treated,
so that in me, as the foremost,
Christ Jesus might display all his patience as an example
for those who would come to believe in him for everlasting life.
To the king of ages, incorruptible, invisible, the only God,
honor and glory forever and ever. Amen.
Amen!
Blessings
Shannon