Waking up this morning to a crisp 65 degree breeze was like being given a handful of chocolate kisses that miraculously never add a pound. It was unexpected and woke me up from the deep drowsy fog that plagues the body at 5am. It was promising to be a good day, a little busy playing catch up from being gone all weekend but nothing I hadn’t handled before.
However, after morning Mass I literally settled into a funk. You know, one of those feelings that has no real instigator, nor an agenda but settles in the pit of the stomach like cement. Later a friend called and she told me I sounded ‘sad’. I argued, “I’m not sad!”…but that wasn’t necessarily true. How could I explain this? I have no reason to be sad! Yet, I can see why someone would say that because it is the heavy feeling that plagues me but I do want to argue it away for there is no logic to its existence.
I’ve tried to pray it away, seeing that I’ve managed to see 11:11, 1:11, 3:33 and 4:44 today when I went to see what time it was. (This is my crazy code from my ‘angel’ and the saints in heaven that I’m being watched over.)… What troubles me more is that this feeling crept in yesterday morning with a sudden snap that felt like someone pushing me awake at 5:45am. I didn’t mention it yesterday because it hadn’t settled as strong as it is today. That ‘push’ was real, physical, and it left my heart beating fast and my chest tight almost like an anxiety attack. I prayed Hail Mary’s to get it to go away, praying away the evil but it remained.
My next speaking engagement is in Minot, North Dakota and they are asking me to cover Spiritual Warfare. I am used to coming under ‘attack’ before any event, especially one that I will purposefully denounce satan and his useless fear. This could be a ‘warm up’… but I’d rather think not. At any rate, please pray for me and the ministry and I would be honored if you would allow me to pray for you. Contact me and let me know your prayers requests, no need to post them for the world to see. I truly would love to offer this up and focus on your needs.
Blessings
Shannon