Sleep has been my number 1 commodity this past week. My body physically ‘speaks’ out “Give me rest!” After adoration yesterday morning I came back home, went back to bed and slept till 8am (boys didn’t have school). 8am is sleeping in for me! At 5am this morning I was awakened by a strange hacking sound. I thought for sure one of my dogs was about to upchuck so I yelled, “Stop!” and rushed both dogs out of the bedroom and outside. With bleary eyes and legs still asleep I stumbled back to my bedroom to find that it wasn’t ‘vomit’ but ‘diarrhea’ (yes, it made a SOUND like vomiting!!! 🙁 ewwww) and in TWO separate spots! UGH…do you know that neither my husband nor my son (Seth, who slept on our floor last night because he thinks it’s ‘fun’) woke up? I had the light turned on and it took me at least 30-40 minutes to get that mess up at least enough to not leave a smell. But the damage was done to the carpet. At any rate, I crawled back into bed by 5:45 and didn’t wake up again till 9am.
Despite the horrific ‘drama’ I do feel rested and I notice when I feel rested then I am more apt to be available both mentally and spiritually to those around me. That’s why I found today’s reading from My Daily Bread validating. The subject is Shifting Moods and Feelings and though I am not in a place at the moment where I feel ‘high’ or even ‘low’ I do relate to what the message had to say and I feel called to share it as sometimes I think it’s good for us to hear that being ‘human’ is OK.
My child, do become discouraged because your interior dispositions change so easily. At one moment you are filled with a burning desire to serve Me and a short while later you feel alone and uninterested….by this process your soul is purified of it’s selfishness in serving Me. In spite of your changing moods and feelings, you can still prove your loyalty to Me. Simply refuse to abandon the intentions and resolutions which you made previously. – My Daily Bread
Do not be discouraged on your journey if you come to this place of extreme high and extreme low. Remember to ‘stay balanced’ by trusting another moment of closeness to God and clarification in your life is soon to follow an extreme low.
And when you are at a ‘stable’ moment, neither high nor low as I am now…get plenty of rest because it just means He is preparing you for the work that is to be done.
Blessings
Shannon