The Vitamin D must be kicking in because I sense the ‘fog’ of uncertainty, disarray and complacency lifting revealing my true self. Isn’t it crazy that a deficiency in a vitamin can be so aggressive in attacking someone’s feelings and abilities? I would not have believed it if it hadn’t happened to me.
And God being as every faithful as He promises He gave me a word of encouragement this morning in the My Daily Bread that I would like to share:
“Only he who perseveres to the end will be saved. With the help of my Grace, be determined to follow My will regardless of feelings. Moods and feelings will change with the changing hour of the day, but your will must stand firm in loyalty to Me.”
I didn’t give up, even when I felt so … blah…(it’s not creative or eloquent but it’s the only way I can describe how I was feeling) even then I knew to persevere with God, that He would bring that ‘new day’ of light and hope once again. It comes on the dawn of a new year as well which makes me that much more excited and happy. A new year is like opening a new present with endless opportunities. Like Mary Poppins magical bag that seems endless with depth and space. Every time she put her hand in who knew what object she’d pull out.
2011 is like reaching into a box with the same magical dimensions of heavenly depth and width. We reach in hoping and wishing for our hand to wrap around something familiar and desired but sometimes it might pull up an object we might not have thought of to ask for or might not have the faintest idea it’s purpose. God is generous and spaces out the gifts we have longed for, certainly allowing us to reach in and grab a few each year but He doesn’t want us to overlook the new and unknown gifts that most often bring more joy and fulfillment than any little ‘thing’ we ‘think’ we want.
Every year I write down what I ‘think’ I might like to reach in and grab for the year. I state my desires, my grievances, my hopes, dreams, outlandish wishes and what I’d like to learn to steer clear from…and then I end with opening my will up to His, vowing to be better at accepting the unknown, even when it comes in an ugly package.
Join me in these next few days by coming up with your ‘wish list’ and on Friday, day 365, be sure to write yourself a letter to God letting Him know what it is you desire but don’t forget to leave it open in the end to accepting much much more.
Blessings
Shannon
P.S. Neal has not received the results from the MRI compared to last year’s MRI. As soon as I know I will post. We thank you so much for your prayers.