Have you ever had one of those days where the light in the world seemed dim, blocked out by a thin layer of gray haze, the edges of buildings blurred leaving no room for distinction so everything ran together and even though you were able to function you knew that if you stopped for more than two minutes and shut your eyes you’d fall instantly into an REM sleep?
Yeah, that’s my day.
I haven’t stopped yet but I’m about to. 🙂
Even in spiritual direction this morning I couldn’t focus my thoughts. I know I discussed this state of discernment that leaves me anxious for God’s answer for direction and I’m still not getting a notion I’m to move. So, I remain in this realm of persevering waiting for that nudge of the Holy Spirit to begin that next chapter. I know the outcome will always be more than I could anticipate, but the wait makes me anxious.  However, I do remember praying for patience quite often and thus here is the answer! I’m learning patience.
The only other pinnacle moment of the day was resting in the arms of Mary when I heard some more frustrating news in regards to this new position Neal has taken on. Again, I know we will persevere and I know that in the long run we will be blessed more than we could wish to anticipate, however, some injustices can still slap the spirit. All I could think to do was run to my friend’s house who is hosting Mary of Rosa Mystica and sit in prayer. “I trust in You, Lord…I trust in You, Lord…I trust in You, Lord.” I repeated till peace took the place of the anxiety.
It was all God today, I’ve been kind of slacking lately but I know the time will come when He’ll ask me to step it up and maybe all of this will have me prepared.
I trust in You, Lord.
Blessings
Shannon