9 years ago today, well approximately at 11:35pm, I was envisioning Christ walking on water, cradling me like a baby in His arms as he carried me through each tidal wave of excruciating pain. That image is as clear as if that moment were yesterday. It doesn’t seem so odd for me to call up such imagery today but the day Seth was born was nearly two months before I ever gave myself fully over to God. In fact, I was just beginning to feel the nudge to question who Christ really was or is, especially in my life. I had many doubts and being a ‘righteous Christian’ was the last thing I wanted to be. I still don’t want to be a ‘righteous’ Christian, at least in my opinion saying it like that brings up hypocrisy and rigidness. I believe in the truth and I believe in God’s love which brings forth His mercy, grace, redemption, and forgiveness.
So ‘seeing’ Christ in that moment, though unusual, certainly was what kept me from coming off the table and committing first degree murder! I didn’t have an epidural, all natural birth my friends AND my cervix wouldn’t thin so they had to reach in and pull it over his head so he could crown! Ah, yes, if there are any teens reading this I think that is reason to be sure and wait till marriage AND to ask for an epidural! 🙂
Once that brutality was done all 9lbs of him popped out blue as a brand new bruise because he wasn’t breathing. Isn’t it amazing what happens in a matter of seconds? Before I knew it I heard him scream and his color quickly returned. It was a dramatic entry into this world and I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat.
I was screaming then and I pray I won’t be screaming tonight as I will be hosting a sleep over party (did you know slumber parties are only for girls??) with 9 little 8/9 year old boys!!!!! PRAY FOR ME! 🙂 That’s why I’m writing this now…
Oh My Goodness…I just love God’s since of humor! I had to break there for a moment because some boys were being dropped off and one of the mothers came in and started laughing. Said she saw something today that I might need to hold onto for tonight. It’s a silver coin that has a cross on the front and on the back reads:
“Lord, help me remember that nothing is going to happen today that You and I can’t handle together.”
Now how crazy is that???? I write that story about Him carrying me through the pain of my birth, helping me through it and then she gives me this coin only minutes later to help me tonight! 🙂
Thank you GOD.
Never doubt.
Blessings
Shannon