A door closed for me yesterday. I prayed that I would receive firm confirmation and it was received via a generic email. It was not surprising to have this door close but yet I still looked at it with that hint of wistfulness filled with memories of the past. I know the adage “When one door closes another opens”and more than anything I trust in where it is God is leading me. But it still doesn’t take the sting away from the door shutting in your face.
There was a moment when I thought, “I’m worthy enough to walk through that passage! Why do they feel I’m not worthy enough? Or capable? I’ve been through that passage, I’ve walked its halls. I’m still working with those I’ve met along the way. I’ve been validated and blessed on that journey. Why am I suddenly on the other side of this door?”
I spoke these thoughts out loud to my husband. I knew the answers. I embrace them and welcome them. But I still needed to say my thoughts out loud so someone else could tell me what I already knew to be my truth. “That passage has led you where you are today. You have grown, matured and God is clearly moving you through another passage. Why are you allowing this closed door to affect your insecurities? It really has nothing to do with you personally. Walk away from the closed door and focus on the one that God is unlocking right now.” (Granted, he didn’t speak like this but these comments are essentially what he said 🙂 )
Today’s O’Antiphon is “O Key of David” and it comes from Isaiah 22:22:
I will place the keyof the House of David on his shoulder;
what he opens, no one will shut,
what he shuts, no one will open.
I thought this to be very appropriate for me today and I love how God is intentional in all things. What Jesus opens no one will shut and what Jesus shuts no one will open. I praise Him for this truth and so I move away from the shut door toward the one He is about to open for me with great anticipation.
Blessings
Shannon