“Bless The Lord oh my soul, oh my soul, worship His Holy Name. Sing like never before, oh my soul, I’ll worship Your Holy Name.” 🙂 This is the song that is in my head as I woke up this morning so I felt like sharing.
Worship with me! 10,000 Reasons (Bless The Lord) Matt Redman
O my soul
Worship His holy name
Sing like never before
O my soul
I’ll worship Your holy name
The sun comes up, it’s a new day dawning
It’s time to sing Your song again
Whatever may pass, and whatever lies before me
Let me be singing when the evening comes
O my soul
Worship His holy name
Sing like never before
O my soul
I’ll worship Your holy name
You’re rich in love, and You’re slow to anger
Your name is great, and Your heart is kind
For all Your goodness I will keep on singing
Ten thousand reasons for my heart to find
O my soul
Worship His holy name
Sing like never before
O my soul
I’ll worship Your holy name
And on that day when my strength is failing
The end draws near and my time has come
Still my soul will sing Your praise unending
Ten thousand years and then forevermore
O my soul
Worship His holy name
Sing like never before
O my soul
I’ll worship Your holy name
Jesus, I’ll worship Your holy name
Lord, I’ll worship Your holy name
Praise God!! 😀 I needed that this morning as yesterday (Friday, Day 305) was both difficult and rewarding.
I had the gift of speaking with someone I hadn’t connected with in about 8 years. The reasoning for our ‘disconnectedness’ seemed a natural progression. However, I found out that it was not. She finally had the desire and the courage to come to me and let me know that I had hurt her. She went on to explain the specific day and conversation in which I was left with my mouth dropped open and in complete confusion. I simply did not remember doing what she said I did. I remembered it completely different and could swear that it was how it went down just as she could swear it went down the way it was in her memory.
The ‘event’ itself was a bit of an emotional one to begin with, to be quite honest, it was tragic therefore emotions were running high from the moment the news broke.
My reaction to this was not to defend myself. There is nothing worse for me than to be accused of something I didn’t do, however, my immediate reaction was not to be defensive but to question myself. It was 8 years go. Did I do that? How awful and horrible if I did.
I listened to her and when she asked me to lay out how I remembered it, I did. Before I could get to the end she heard me say something that caused her to stop me all together. I had gone to someone else to help me in that moment and in realizing I had asked someone at that time for confirmation and help she said to me, “I think God did what He needed to do.” And she felt at peace.
I wish I could say I felt at peace but I didn’t. If I’ve learned anything in that 8 year period since this incident it is that I make many mistakes. :/ Even though I could swear I didn’t do as she said, I had to accept that maybe I did. Maybe a sense of self-serving came into play and my mind blocked out what I needed to do and I did the opposite. I don’t know. I don’t remember.
What I do know is that she gave me a great gift in finally coming forward and confronting me, even after 8 years of despising me. The fact I was clueless to her feelings hurts. If I could I’d have everyone like me. But I know that is not possible nor will it ever happen because we are all human and I’m simply going to do things that are stupid and upset others or that are intentional that others don’t agree with and that is okay.
She and I are good now for which I am thankful. I owed her an apology regardless of how it all went down. She had 8 years of hurt on her and I was none the wiser. My apology is sincere and I’m grateful for the moment to look into my soul and recognize an area where I need to be more vigilant.
All of this happened just before speaking at a Faith & Loss conference in Nacogdoches and my first response was to hear the ‘lies’ – “You don’t need to be talking, you hurt someone else and didn’t even realize it. You aren’t good enough to help others.”
This might have paralyzed me years ago but thank God He has brought me to a place where I know my worth regardless of my mistakes. I prayed through the lies, exposed them and asked God for forgiveness if indeed I had intentionally done something 8 years ago to hurt my friend.
When I went into that conference God blessed the heck out of the event and immediately I was put in the path of a survivor who needed to talk and then with great GODLY confidence blew through the session and met with others who needed to share. WOW is all I can say. I LOVE WHAT HE’S CALLED ME TO DO. 😀
It is never fun to be ‘confronted’ and sometimes letting time pass before the confrontation is the blessing that is needed to have both parties willing to see one another’s side and be open on both parts to the gift of forgiveness. I just wish it hadn’t been 8 years!
Please think about that if you have something that has been festering on your heart for another. And if it’s ME please come talk to me!! 🙂
OH!! And if you are a woman I talked to yesterday and I told you I was going to give you a book and charm….you know who you are(plus I know your name. 😉 )…contact me and give me your address to send them. I couldn’t find you!
Blessings
Shannon