Today I failed. Or in my own personal opinion I did. I didn’t show up for my son as I should have as a mother.
Pressed for time I was writing an article that is due this weekend, washing laundry and answering emails before I was to head out the door for a meeting. This meeting was clear across town an hour away from where I live. As I shut everything down to walk out the door I get a phone call from the school nurse.
Seth had a rapid heartbeat and dizziness. He was fine at the moment she was speaking to me but she said it had been so fast she couldn’t count. I knew I needed to get him but I was also headed out the door. This meeting was supposed to be something that benefited the ministry and yet here was my son.
“What do I do?” I asked the nurse. I needed her to either say, “Come get him now!” or “He’s fine but we need to keep an eye on this.” She wouldn’t give me either. I made my decision. I would pick him up and call the doctor on the way to see what they felt I should do.
My doctor’s nurse set up an appointment for the afternoon and said all he needed was to be around an adult who he could tell if it happened again. “Go to your meeting, he’ll be fine,” she said.
So I picked up my son and took him to a friend of mine who happens to also be the mother of one of his good friends. All the way to the meeting I wanted to kick myself. How was that ‘showing up’ for my son? I should have dropped it all REGARDLESS of the opportunity.
All through the meeting I had a sick feeling. It didn’t feel right. I didn’t feel right being there. I had it all wrong today. Yesterday I would’ve written about choices. How it’s OUR CHOICE if someone makes us feel a certain way and OUR CHOICE how we respond and react to others.
But, here, this ‘choice’…MY CHOICE…was to push past what I knew I should do because I felt obligated to this opportunity.
Thankfully when I picked up Seth both my friend and Seth were happy because she was able to talk to him about her son and he felt like he was being ‘listened to’ (you know, how mom’s can’t seem to do that but when we do it for one another’s kids they happen to listen??) 🙂
It doesn’t matter because I’m so GRATEFUL to my friend for being there for him!!!
Seth’s doctor visit went fine. The doctor said he seemed completely healthy but because of some family history on his dad’s side of heart disease then they are sending him for some blood tests, chest X-Ray and an EKG on Monday. So please pray for my little guy that it is nothing to be concerned about!!
Priorities….yes I write about them and sometimes I do good….and other days I fail. I’ll pick myself back up, learn from this and do better next time. 😉
Blessings
Shannon