The fog has been lifted, my spirits renewed and I’m back on track. Thank you, Joy, for the kind email sending me a picture of an amazing sunset she witnessed in Florida this morning after reading last nights blog and doing a Rosa Mystica prayer. I wish I could upload the picture but it won’t let me save it to my computer. Just so you know, the early morning sky was laden with clouds and then it’s like an eyelid opening from a deep sleep and out peeks the eye of the sun.
Kingwood was covered in the same gorgeous sun today as well, even though it was what I consider cold, the physical beauty of the day warmed my spirit. Not only did I wake up with a clearer head and a renewed zest in my step but last night God gave me a gift.
A young man (in his early 20’s) called me late into the evening. The best way to describe this young man in this moment is that he was a tortured soul. He knows he wants to live for God, to follow God’s will but he is all consumed by the successes of the ‘world’, ie: to live for fame, fortune and sex. (I’d actually written something a bit more crass but, though I am known to ‘step beyond that line’, I decided to be gentle.)
What struck me as we spoke was his complete disbelief that God loved him and had a plan for him. And I quote, “Why would God love me when I’m one big flaw?” Oh how my heart both shattered into tiny little pieces of longing for him to know how awesome he is and how loved he is…and how it also raged with anger to the great deceiver!
I did my best to talk him down and give him TRUTH that he could hold onto.
That phone call allowed me to get over myself real quick. I prayed that day “I trust in You, Lord,” but I was not acting it out. I had begun to believe that maybe I deserved to be in that pit and maybe I just wasn’t good enough for Him that I needed to try harder!
I wasn’t about to let that young man wallow and stay ‘stuck’ in the devil’s grasp, nor was I going to join him and wallow in the stink pit together. Yes, we are going through some hard times, and Yes it is not fun, and Yes I feel uncomfortable being in this position because of some unfair injustice…BUT it does not define me and I can live out each day with my chin up!
The enemy will not defeat me…he will not defeat you.
I want to quote an expression here given to me by an 80 yr old young soul. She is the mother of one of the ladies in my Bible study group and I just love it. I wanted to put it as the title but, considering I speak all around the U. S. to young women about respecting themselves, I didn’t want anyone to get the wrong impression. But, well, take it or leave it:
CHIN UP…KNOCKERS OUT!
🙂
Blessings
Shannon