Just Show Up – Do Not Worry About Tomorrow

Now that I no longer write this blog every day (Just Show Up 365) as I did in 2010 there are so many little occurrences that cause me to stop and ponder on the nature of life that I think ‘that would be a good blog’ but then I find that I’m not obligated to write daily so the moment passes. 🙁 Rest assured the time that I would’ve spent in front of the computer musing over the day and how God ‘showed up’ or how I ‘showed up’ for Him (or failed to) is now spent with my family. As awful as this sounds I make myself not go into the computer room if they are home because I know they have often felt in competition with this device. In actuality, I’m doing the best I can to live upto my blog’s title ‘To Just Show Up’ for them.

One of the greatest battles I struggle with internally is balancing my personally desires to write and or go out and do the ministry work while being the mother and wife that makes up my first and most prominent vocation. When my spiritual advisor told me ‘it’s not about you’ I realized that goes with my entire life, not just the ministry. The daily struggles at home of parenting and communicating with my husband – it’s not about ME, it’s about what God wants to do through us as a family and to focus on the role HE needs me to be as a wife and mother to portray HIS LOVE.

At times I made it all too complicated constantly worrying am I doing this right? Am I making the right decision? Should I go here or there? Am I being too rough, too kind, too lenient, too selfish, too hard-headed?

IT’S NOT ABOUT ME 😉

I’m at the very end of the devotional My Daily Bread by the Confraternity of the Precious Blood and the message is loud and clear just as it was through my spiritual advisor – ‘Stay in union with Me.’ And then again this message is reconfirmed through my Cornerstone Scripture Bible study in Matthew 6:25-34

“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat (or drink), or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing?

Look at the birds in the sky; they do not sow or reap, they gather nothing into barns, yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are not you more important than they?

Can any of you by worrying add a single moment to your life-span? ¹⁷

Why are you anxious about clothes? Learn from the way the wild flowers grow. They do not work or spin.

But I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was clothed like one of them.

¹⁸ If God so clothes the grass of the field, which grows today and is thrown into the oven tomorrow, will he not much more provide for you, O you of little faith?

So do not worry and say, ‘What are we to eat?’ or ‘What are we to drink?’ or ‘What are we to wear?’

All these things the pagans seek. Your heavenly Father knows that you need them all.

But seek first the kingdom (of God) and his righteousness, ¹⁹ and all these things will be given you besides.

Do not worry about tomorrow; tomorrow will take care of itself. Sufficient for a day is its own evil.

God has shown up in so many ways these past few days it has been beyond overwhelming. Despite the first gray hair I found on my head the other day (yikes!) He is telling me daily, ‘Do not worry, stay in union with Me and go where I lead you.’

This weekend I’ll be leading a retreat for some young professionals in our Galveston-Houston Archdiocese. I ask for your prayers that the Holy Spirit is ablaze throughout the entire weekend! 🙂 And I ask for prayer for Neal and the boys as they have a ‘manly man’s weekend’ as they like to call it. 😉 I don’t know why I worry…I’m not sure they miss me so much! Ha!

Blessings

Shannon