‘I’m going to be bored out of my mind!’ my 10 year old just said to me because he has to wait till 2pm before his friend is dropped off at the house. My oldest has no problem reading a book, going on a bike ride, just ‘chilling out’ but my youngest has to be engaged all the time. THIS is my excuse for slacking on my blog this week. The kids are home. 🙂
I’ve played Texasopoly, gone swimming, taken them to NASA Space Center and watched every ‘Man vs. Food’ and ‘American Pickers’ episodes that have aired. Today might be a reprieve…we shall see. We leave for Colorado Saturday morning. I don’t have one item packed. I’m losing my touch quickly. I think my mind has packed up and taken flight long before the suggested 2 hour pre-boarding recommendation.
Despite the reckless abandon of the week there is one thing I’d love to share but can’t share fully because it has not quite come to completion but I want to reinforce the fact that God is so faithful. My last entry I raved about my friend’s preaching abilities and how God showed me ‘His face’ through the message he delivered on transitioning. I recognized that I was holding onto the comfortable aspects of what Has done for me in the past ten years and even though it has been very apparent and clear to me that God wants me to move forward to begin a new chapter I have been reluctant to walk away from what is easy and what I know. I examined the interior prayer dialogue I was having with God these past few months and recognized that although I was finding that comfortable place with Him again, able to literally ‘hear’ His direction for me I was nervous about stepping forward without at least one hand holding onto a line that connects me to the past.
Ten years (ironically almost to the same month) that I cried out to God to ‘Do something with my life’ and walked forward with no expectations, no anticipations, and no looking back I am doing it all over again. Only this time I am saying ‘Thank you for where you have brought me, continue to do with me what You will.’ It is in the release that we are fully open. Imagine a person standing in a boat, the boat’s engine is idling the driver perched behind the wheel ready to gun the gas and take off into the water’s abyss but the person standing is with one hand holding onto a rope that is tied to a post on the dock. That boat is going nowhere unless the person lets go. If the driver guns the gas and the person hasn’t let go of the rope then that person will fall backward, land on their butt or even fall into the water and miss the ride completely! But if the person let’s go of the rope then not only can the driver do his job but the person now has both hands free.
I’ve let go of the rope. God has gunned the gas and already there is something in the horizon that looks promising. 🙂
Hopefully by the time I resume in about 12 days I will have all sorts of crazy stories to tell.
Till then….
Blessings!
Shannon