Good grief, I surrender. Okay? Technology… I’m waving the white flag.
I’ve been having issues with my email for the past few weeks. On an average day I send out about 20-25 emails or responses to emails(and that is just from my personal email account) and it turns out some would make it to the recipient and others were being held in ‘ciber space’ and then sent 8 or 9 days later. It would show ‘sent’ and not be in my Outbox so I had no idea which emails were being delivered and which were held hostage. I could only guess when I wouldn’t get a response.
I relented and got my computer guy over here to check out the issue. It is with the email server for that account which is eventually going to go out due to gmail being so popular. I DO have a gmail account (which is also where all correspondence from this website goes to as well) but I was keeping it separate. Now I have to give in and stick with gmail all the way and he also convinced me to stop working in Outlook since I already had a set up on gmail.
Needless to say I am one that squirms with change. 😉 I like the pretty organized look of Outlook and it already has so many files and folders all organized! But, when we get a new computer (which is needed sooner than I’d like to admit) it would be harder for me to transfer all of the Outlook and pay the cost when I can get it all organized on gmail.
Ugh. I don’t want to do any of it to be honest. I cringe at technology. So much of it is over my head and I get frustrated when I don’t know how to do something (for instance, like inserting a VIDEO into these blog posts without making you click to go to YouTube!!!) And I do relent and ask but then it seems the people I’m asking seem to treat me as if I should know what they are talking about so they skim over it and I still feel lost. 🙁
I want to wiggle my nose and make it all happen. 🙂
The same goes for everything that grips me with the fear of ‘unknown’. I want to be comfortable and all-knowing and have everything come easy. But we all know that isn’t reality and how boring would life be if it was all expected and came easy?
I worked with someone today going through a personal issue that has her gripped with fear. It wasn’t really the ‘issue’ that is the ‘issue’ it is in wanting to be all-knowing. To have that control to know what is coming next and if it is to be tragedy or suffering then being prepared and knowing how to control and organize it just so in order to make the pain minimal. That’d be nice, right?
NO!
We might think we want to be ‘in control’ and know everything but if we did then we’d be all consumed with the suffering and tragedy ignoring the joy and beauty on the horizon.
**Newsflash** We are all going to die.
🙂
And because of this fact at some point in our life we are going to experience the suffering and sorrow of knowing people who get sick, who die tragically, who die unexpectedly, or simply because God is calling them home because it is their time. And we will have our time too. But the joy in life is surrendering to its daily God given miraculous beauty.
Life is unorganized, messy and always advancing. Sure there are moments we want to make it stop, to sit still and get our bearings. Often God will bring us to a place of retreat or simple quiet time to allow this to happen but then we are called to press forward, conquer the fear of not knowing, ask when we don’t know how and help others when we do.
We are called to surrender each and every day and trust He will equip us with all we need to know for the moment.
I still wish I knew how to put a video into a blog post (in WordPress if anyone wants to be kind enough to contact me with step by step instruction 😉 ) but sooner than later I’ll ask my web guy again and admit that I don’t have any idea what he is talking about. 🙂
Blessings
Shannon