My stomach is bottomless today. I want to eat everything in sight. What does that say? I’m an emotional eater. 😉
This morning I was forced to get up at 6am to attend 7am Mass because Ryan has his last performance of Annie Jr. tonight. Waking up so early on a Sunday morning is not my normal routine. Which lent to more hours awake to want to eat! 😉
Before I head to the final performance I was contemplating about my uneventful day and realized the greatest way God showed up was through lived advice. First from Fr. Alfonso through his homily. The main point I recall was him explaining how he is human and makes mistakes. That he hurt a friend with a decision he had made and that friend confronted him and told him of his hurt. He said he couldn’t make the hurt go away but he was grateful for the chance to know what he did to hurt him so that he could pray and seek forgiveness.
This afternoon I checked my emails and came across a fellow survivor’s email to me in regards to my upcoming journey to New Mexico. I am going to share what struck me as I believe it might help others as well:
“I remember when my perp died, I had so many different emotions. I was conflicted between anger and rage that I never was able to confront him, guilt because I felt so much anger at him, and conviction to forgive him. I found out that although I felt like I forgave him, but once seeing his body I felt a different type of incorrectness. I can share with you, there will be a lot of emotions, but try to determine before you get there a plan for when it will be time to leave the service. In other words, do not allow your desire to do the right thing override your knowing your limits so this cannot cause more trauma. Just trust your gut, make sure whoever your support person is, they know what to help with and when to remind you to take breaks if needed. As be sure to process as soon as you are safe to do so!!”
Solid, valid, cherished advice. 😉 Thank you!
I need to pray and think.
Blessings
Shannon