I’m not perfect. 🙂
A part of me wanted to lead and leave with that statement but I’ll clarify. These past few days have been HARD. God is refining me and it HURTS. I’m resisting. I’m whining. I’m spoiled and selfish wanting to hold on to the dead layers that are weighing me down but I hold tight because the weight is like a security blanket.
My spirit reminds me of the FREEDOM and JOY and BEAUTY I will feel when I finally choose to allow the old self to be shed.
All day Monday I cried. 🙁 I haven’t blogged because I’m ashamed. But WHY am I ashamed to cry? My feelings have been hurt by a loved one. I cried. That is OK. I worked things out with that loved one and though it didn’t go ‘my way’ it is all OK. But I still fell into my heavenly Father’s arms and cried.
It reminds me of this painting that was done for me by a young woman in my youth group. She was only 17 at the time and she did this off of a description I explained when I felt this way once before. Beautiful.
The day I cried I knew the next day would be a new day. It was my HOPE. God delivered His promise to me all day long – “Be STILL and Know that I am God” Psalm 46:10
“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.” Matthew 6:34
“Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken.” Psalm 55:22
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7
I could go on and on because they were popping up every time I opened a devotional, an email or looked at someone’s tweet. EVERYWHERE.
He is THAT GOOD. 🙂
At any rate that is my ‘Just Show Up’ moment for these past few days….my failure to ‘show up’ for Him but man…He is ever present, ever reliable and ever merciful. He reminds me even in my lowest that my HOPE is in HIM.
MY HOPE IS IN YOU by Aaron Shust ( YouTube video w/lyrics)
“My Hope Is In You”
As your word throws doubt far away
I sing to You and my heart cries
“Holy! Hallelujah, Father, You’re near!”
My hope is in You, Lord
All the day long, I won’t be shaken by drought or storm
A peace that passes understanding is my song
And I sing my hope is in You, Lord
I wait for You and my soul finds rest
In my selfishness, You show me grace
I worship You and my heart cries “Glory
Hallelujah, Father, You’re here!”
My hope is in You, Lord
All the day long I won’t be shaken by drought or storm
A peace that passes understanding is my song
And I sing my hope is in You, Lord
I will wait on You
You are my refuge
I will wait on You
You are my refuge
My hope is in You, Lord, all the day long
I won’t be shaken by drought or storm
My hope is in You, Lord
All the day long I won’t be shaken by drought or storm
A peace that passes understanding is my song
And I sing my hope is in You, Lord
My hope is in You, Lord, yeah
My hope is in You, Lord