Last night as I couldn’t sleep (even at 3am I was WIDE awake) I was writing and came across something that I found insightful. I’ve always said “When I speak I’m speaking to myself first because it is something God wants ME to hear.” Which is why I delight in finding things He has led me to journal that continue to speak to my spirit today.
This was written June 13, 2006 while I was at a LIFETEEN Conference in Arizona. It was the second day of the conference, the day after I found out my grandmother passed away. I’d experienced an amazing gift from God revealing to me in a very real and concrete way his glory and majesty in the promise He gives us to live with Him for eternal life. I won’t go into the entire story (you’ll have to buy the book! 😉 ha! And I’m almost done…yeah!) but I wanted to share this short revelation because to me, though it was 3am it is how He ‘showed up’ for me today:
Lord, I am a witness to your majestic canvas as I sit on this rock on what I would consider a mountain…others probably a hill…;) The sun is barely edging into the horizon offering a pale orange backdrop to the mountains before me. It is a beautiful sight. You are a beautiful sight.
You promised I would see You in the sunrise and I certainly am. You promise so much and You always deliver. Now it’s changing to deep coppers and reds. A blanket of thin clouds hangs just high enough above the horizon to give the sky a sense of protection. Lord, you know what I see most as the sun continues to edge up is the illumination. With each minute that passes it broadens the horizon shedding light on more of the world around me.
As I get to know You more and allow You to shed your light on my path I am given more understanding, wisdom, strength and trust. And all the lights that were in the city that seemed to take away from the brilliance of the sunrise now are so dim they no longer hold a threat to the beauty of what lies before me. Just as all the ‘worldly’ things that threaten to keep me from Your light grow dim as I seek You more.
Thank You, Lord, for this awesome display of Your love and gift of beauty. Yesterday was hard. I will miss Sweetgraw and I’m selfishly sad because she was my support, the one who ‘got’ me. I know she was tired and is happier with You. You never cease to amaze me and I am grateful for your generous message and love.
I wrote this 8 years ago! Funny how it’s like I’m preaching to the choir. Yes, I know God’s promises and He is reminding me every day that all we need to do is trust.
As for the day in Germany … I slept most of the morning away due to the fact I couldn’t get my eyes to close till 4:30am. I’ve been taking the time to be here for what I came for and that is my friend, helping her remember these promises too. 😉
Blessings
Shannon